Anxiety, stress, depression-The Big Black Dog

Hello.

A more sombre post from me today. You’ll have all noticed how I haven’t been posting much lately, how perhaps my posts seem less enthusiastic. There’s a reason for that. I’m again in the midst of the Big Black Dog.

http://youtu.be/XiCrniLQGYc

For me, the Black Dog comes and goes. Sometimes I wouldn’t know the dog is there or indeed ever has been, and sometimes (at the moment) I am barely able to get out of bed. I function, I get up and dressed and go to work, but if I am not going to work-well, getting up is an achievement, dressed a miracle.

At the moment I am struggling to get anything done. I can’t concentrate, my diet is terrible and I’m just tired all the time. I don’t feel comfortable seeing my GP-I can’t afford to be signed off work and I don’t want to take medication so for me, there is no real point.

It’s very hard to pinpoint what has triggered this-a lot of the time this has absolutely no trigger. But for me, this time, I think it’s down to the fact my life has changed so much in the last 4 months, all beyond my control and all for the worst. And that’s not easy.

One thing is for sure, though-I am NOT going to let this beat me. In my personal life I am working as hard as I can to get a new job in my field, to save some money, to move out of my parents again as quickly as possible and to see more of my boyfriend. I will at some point also be working on my health and wellbeing, including weight loss. And blogging wise-I am aiming to get back to posting once a day. I won’t always make it, but I will try! Oh and my first target is to try to stop crying all of a sudden for no real reason!

Laura xx

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