I have this voice inside my head. It’s always there, and it tells me what a bad person I am. It likes to point out my flaws, frequently and loudly. And it makes me feel shit. Sometimes, I believe what it’s saying. I step back and I look at myself, I see these flaws, and I think yep, I am AN AWFUL PERSON. I am CONVINCED everything is going to go wrong and my life is ruined. My friends are just PRETENDING to be my friends, they don’t actually like me. I’ll never amount to anything.
But, you know what? It’s not true.
I’m going through some stuff at the moment that I can’t really talk about on here (well I could, it’s my space I can talk about what I want to-but I can’t cope with the consequences if I do) and I very much feel like I’m annoying friends when I talk about it, though they say I’m not. Sometimes you do just have that little voice inside your head and it can be difficult to shut it up. But I do have a coping strategy….
- the quality or state of being conscious or aware of something.“their mindfulness of the wider cinematic tradition”
- a mental state achieved by focusing one’s awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one’s feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations, used as a therapeutic technique.
Mindfulness means different things to different people but to me, I practice mindfulness by spending time outside, ideally somewhere with water, as I find it soothing. I relax myself totally if I have my camera and can take photos, or sit with a cup of tea watching the world pass me by. If I can’t be outside, I like to sit at home flicking through travel posts on Instagram, doing some adult coloring in, or if I’m feeling really bad I’ll get into bed and just lay there.
It’s important to look after your mental health as much as your physical health, and make the time for yourself when you need it most. How do YOU look after your mental health?