I’ve seen a lot of really positive posts about how well 2017 has gone for people, and I have to say it’s not been a bad year for me either. It’s been unexpected, definitely-losing my job in July and then going freelance wasn’t ever my plan, but I’m so glad I made that leap-and I’ll definitely be building on my 2017 successes in 2018. Hell, I even launched my own business, Laura Haley Photography, which is fantastic for me. But, there are also some things I left in 2017.
Two people I thought I was really close to have disappeared out of my life in 2017. I say disappeared-they’d probably describe things differently. What actually happened is I realised I was doing all the chasing in the friendship. I was the one organising that cup of tea, sending the first text all the time, inviting them to things-and they were the ones who cancelled, every single time. I decided that if someone was telling me with their actions that I wasn’t important to them, maybe I should listen, and so stopped chasing them. I’ve not heard from either for months, throughout my birthday and Christmas I didn’t even get a text. Message received loud and clear. Fake friends are definitely things I left in 2017.
At the beginning of 2017 I went to watch a photographer do a studio shoot, saying ‘it’ll be good learning for me but I’ll never be shooting people, I’m just not good enough’. Now I have my own photography business and I AM shooting people, regularly, including second shooting a wedding (my biggest fear!) at the end of 2017. I am leaving self doubt in 2018. I can do whatever I want to do, and I will smash it photography wise this year. Self doubt is definitely one of the things I left in 2017.
This is completely a hangover from the losing my job and going freelance days-since July I’ve always, in the back of my mind, been worrying about money. My car insurance, road tax and MOT were all due in December and I didn’t know what they’d cost, and that was stressful. Now that’s over, I’m planning a no (well, very low!) spend January and February so I can save as much as possible, to put myself back into a position where I have savings. Yep, money worries can stay in 2o17.
What did you leave in 2017?